TROLOLOL.

This is me experimenting my new life, and I know sometime when I'm experimenting I tend to do things that couldn't possibly cross your mind. So judge me all you like because I'm going to join......... --wait-for-it-and-hold-on-tight-to-your-pants-because-for-whoever-knows-me-will-certainly-dropped-it-the-moment-you-read-the-next-word-after-this-bash--


cheerleader team.

TROLOLOL. IT SOUND EVEN FUNNIER NOW THAT I WRITE IT ON THIS BLOG.

Well, that's the big news from me. I've dropped the bomb. Comment here all you like. <3 Love you all.

cheerio,
gita-

A week (plus a few days) after

Hello all! Long time no see. :3

So I just finish my faculty orientation about three days ago and now I finally have a spare time to write in my blog. Well, to be honest, I'm not really free either, because apparently THAT orientation isn't over yet. I still have TKA (Temu Kangen Akrab), some kind of ospek, but we're going somewhere and stay the night there for 3 days. And what really shocked me is, they still give us a weekly task that have to be submitted every Friday at 4PM until the event start, which means until early October. WHYYY?? I thought we have enough assignment from the lecturer but noo-- we still have to do it to. Uh, ahem, okay, I'm not complaining, just a little bit shock, that's all.

Anyway I don't think I've shown you my new room in Yogyakarta, so here it is.

I live in a dorm near to my campus. It took 15 minutes walk to get there or 7 minutes if I use my bike (my legs getting bigger but I couldn't careless). The food's great, there's a mini mart at the other side of my dorm so I don't have to struggled if I want to buy something.

That's my bed and my desk at the far end. I really like it here. It's peaceful and beautiful. (Not beautiful like a beach or mountain view but something better than my old room view: ventilation with bars and roof top) AND finally my room have a window that ACTUALLY functioning properly as room circulation system. HA! I don't have Aircon here but it's a bit cold in here at night. We have two bed and two bathroom. Okay not really two bathroom, one room is for showering and the other room is for digestive problem (hahahah).

I have a pretty cool roomie, at least we can communicate and interact (yes, I've bravely stepped out from my comfort zone and try to talk to her even though I'm a social inept). We have our similarities and differences but that's okay we're fine. So far so good :3

I have a pretty loose schedule that I hope I can use in a good way, I have pretty huge ambition and this schedule make it easier to achieve. I want to get a good GPA so I can apply the scholarship or student exchange program. And to make this ambition more achievable, I'll stop procrastinating, I'll stop watching unnecessary stuff (BC's interview and movies in not included. THEY'RE NECESSARY TO ME), I'll stop being lazy and I hope I can really do this thing.

Speaking of lazy, I don't think laziness is my biggest problem here, the lack of information is. Half of the reason why I can't finish my tasks in time is because I don't know where to find the information. I keep on depending myself on my friend, and I really hate this because I know one of the is a kind of shallow person who like to withhold the information from my group. That bastard. But anything else a part of that is fantastic. My major is fantastic. Psychology is fantastic.

Again. I feel euphoric every time I remember that I'm listed as a Psychology student in UGM. The giddy feeling before I entered the class. The odd feeling like my stomach been turned upside down every time I raised my hands to answer/ask something. Enthusiastic nods every time I understand what the lecturer said. I really hope this enthusiasm last forever. I bloody hope so. :)

I guess this is the end of this post as I actually have to go to interview some of the faculty staff for pasca-ospek's assignment. Well, wish me luck everyone. I still have a very looong journey from here.

Cheerio,
gita---

OH DEAR GOD!

SDAFGHKDKHDLFKLJKHDFSKFN WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPEN WITH FRIENDSTER????

A few years ago I decided to abandon my friendster, because duh that's friendster is full of alayers, but I occasionally opened it because I've write a few post. (A few stupid post to be accurate) and I would like to read it from time to time, BUT--- NOW FRIENDSTER'S DIFFERENT!! It's-it's-it's now a games site!! I haven't even import the blog. NOOOO-- jdlkfjhdlsfjsh;dfhkfjhdsgljkhfl

Okay, I'm finish with this rants.

cheerio,
gita---

Oh goody, I'm being a bit typeactive again.

First of all:
Happy Eid Mubarak 1433 H!

I'm in a really good fanfiction writing mood, but somehow I choose to write on this blog. That's a bit weird, but probably happen because the things that I want write. Now, to the point. So, yesterday, my uncles visited my house and doing their small-but-routine interview to me. One of the question is 'Where are you going to school?' 'psychology ugm' said I proudly. And then they started asking me, why did I choose this major, how many credit that I have to take, what am I going to do after I finish my school and everything else that got me thinking about my future, especially about my next few years. I'm going away in less than 72 hours and I still don't have any idea about anything (well, technically I have few ideas but nevermind that).

That is one of the thing that have been hovering above my head, but there is one other thing, the most frightening thing about this whole matters, Am I going to enjoy doing it? This is not the first time I experienced this phase, the last one end up badly and make me quit. That's not a very good thing and I certainly do not want it to happen again. I asked myself reason why I failed last year, and there's 2 thing that immediately popped out:

1. The major is not really the major that I want.
2. I have this goddamn lazy bone in my arse.

So there I have it, two unbelievably silly reasons why I quit (okay not really that simple, but well, something like that). And other questions follow the reasons above like a river. Is this really the major that I want? Will I stop being an idiot and focus on my education rather than my abnormal obsession toward filming industry? Can I finish my school with great GPA? yadda, yadda, yadda.

That questions led me to this fine morning. After a long and lazy morning, I decide to do a little research of what I'm going to do (at least) until next year. I sat on the computer
(not my laptop, which means I'm pretty serious with this. One point for my pure intention please!) and start finding useful things. My academic calender (I'm going to post it at the end of the post), list of the credits, the organisation/UKM/BKM that I want to join, site that probably be my favourite journal search engine or this one, TransJogja Route, and a couple of important site.

Anyway, that's not really important. The only thing that I want to highlight is this pure joy that I feel while searching for the information. Like when I opened the list of the credit and read it. It says psychology! My stomach flooded with excitement and that makes my heart beats faster. Almost like the feeling I have when I start reading good fanfics. I take this as a good sign, because I distinctly remember my feeling when I was doing this kind of thing last year. No excitement, no proud feeling, actually, I have no feeling at all.

Actually I want write more rants about this, but apparently I have to go and start packing my things. *Sigh* I really hate packing my stuff! Huff, doesn't matter. Off I go.

cheerio,

gita---

Yogyakarta-- Oh God please help me why am I so random at writing post like this

SAGHSFGHHJKH What kind of post is that? Anyway this is the real post. (maksudnya post yang tadi itu bener" melenceng dari hal yang sebenernya mau gw omongin.)

*Breath in, breath out* Jadi gini. Sebelum gw tiba-tiba mental breakdown lagi gw bakal menyampaikan maksud gw dengan cepat.

Ada banyak hal yang gw suka dari Jakarta, gw suka hiruk pikuknya, gw suka macetnya (weheheh. mentang" kaga pernah nyetir sih ya?), gw suka segala kemudahan yang bisa gw dapet disini. Lebih-lebih lagi gw punya banyak temen disini. I'm not known for my social skills in fact, I'm such a social inept. Hal ini yang bikin gw merasa kurang nyaman sama keadaan baru. Apalagi pindah ke suatu tempat yang saaangat asing. The only person that I know well in Yogya is my cousin. And he is the only one. Well, you can count a couple of person there like Ririn, Tantri and Ka Aisha, BUT I'M NOT REALLY CLOSE WITH THEM!! (okay selow Git.)

Intinya gw dalam waktu kurang lebih 2 minggu lagi bakal merantau di tempat yang sangat asing. And that scares me. A LOT!

The positive side of my re-location is: I can start over. Anything that I can't start over properly here like sindiran" menusuk pantat tentang mantan lah, or maybe stopping my bad habit (well, I say maybe) I get to have a fresh start. Along with my super adventurous instinct -an instinct that getting duller as I write because I rarely get a permission to get out the house- I can explore this untouched region (I mean untouched by me) as I like. MUAHAHAH *Evil laugh*

My friend over here, just post a lovely post about Yogyakarta and I agree with her. It is romantic. A really good City to start over. :) I'm not really looking forward to leave, but at least I'm not leaving to a place that gloomier then Jakarta.

*sigh* This is not the end git, do not fret! You can still contact them all, you got internet, bbm, whatsapp, and everything. You're not in the stone age you know. ;)

I hope I can do something with my communication problem but I agree with Jawn (in #PILAR; MadLori)

It would start out enthusiastic. How've you been, play's going great, shooting a guest-starring arc on a telly programme, seems like yesterday we were in Toronto, remember when and how about that time and gosh it was a blast.
The daily mails would become every-other-day mails, then once-a-week mails. The heartfelt chats would become perfunctory small talk. Eventually there'd be the inevitable "well, best of luck, see you sometime" email and that would be that. And he couldn't bear it. He couldn't stand to let what he and Sherlock shared in Toronto devolve predictably from a deep connection into a superficial one, and eventually to none at all. He'd rather never speak to Sherlock again and hold what they'd had safe in his heart than let it spin away into nothingness because he couldn't let go. He wanted no part of it. He would place Sherlock into a bubble and seal him tight away, down deep where no one else could touch him, and there he'd stay, no matter what happened this fall or next year or for the rest of his life.

I can't believe that I can smuggle #Johnlock in this post. trololol

Perasaan gw rada mirip captured banget sama beberapa paragraf diatas. (tentu saja ganti kata HE nya dengan gw, dan kata" yang dicoret dengan orang" terdekat gw/lokasi/kegiatan apa yang kita lakuin bareng) Pokonya ngertilah kalo gw ngga pengen kalo itu cuma awalnya aja conversation yang menggebu-gebu karena masih anget-angetnya pisah berubah jadi conversation yang makin lama makin jarang dibales dan endingnya setopan ga jelas dengan 'well good luck ya.' cih apaantug ngga jelas banget!

Anyway gw lagi ngomongin apaan sih? Ko gw makin lama makin ngaco aja sih omongannya makin ngelantur. HA! ternyata udh jam 12:36 no wonder. This is always happen with 12am writer. We're not very bright in this kind of time.

Well, I guess this is all that I want to say. I love you all, semua temen fangirling, temen yang ngga bisa disebutin sebiji-sebiji karena kececer ga bernama dan ngga berkategori karena cuma berdua, UTS, combro, 2009. <3 It's a privilege to know you all. I hope distance doesn't mean anything and SALAM OLAHRAGA!


cheerio,
gita---

Where my heart lies

So, tadi waktu bangun, gw punya niatan mau bikin blog ini blog half fangirling blog half my real life blog, dan sedari tadi gw udh 4 jam utak-atik segala profilnya lah, designnya, about me nya apa sampe tetek bengeknya, namun akhirnya gw putuskan kalo gw setengahin gitu, blog gw jadi ngga indah sama sekali. Jadilah gw tetep stick ke format awal. blog ini khusus kehidupan gw yang sinetron dan ngga pernah abis petualangannya. Ha-ha-ha.

Tadi sore, sekitar jam (blank) gw lupa pokonya intinya ada temen gw yang ngeblog tentang ke romantisan kota Yogyakarta. Kota yang kelak akan gw tempat untuk sekitar 3 setengah tahun (yeah, I'm pretty optimistic that I can finish this in 3 and a half year. WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE!!)
Ada hal mistik dari kota ini yang gw ngga bisa ilangin dari pertama kali gw kunjungin. Bukan mistik a.k.a spooky gimana gitu ya, mystical and exciting. Kota yang damai, santai dan siriusly romantic (Yeah, I agree that city is somehow seems romantic) Gw yakin gw bakalan betah disana---------

Okay I lied. I don't like this at all. I mean, I'm grateful that I got accepted in UGM. No you cannot understand what does it means to me. I means something bigger than 'just get into public school' No-- I got second chance. To prove to other that I'm not somekind of loser and a non-finisher. This is my golden ticket. To finish something that I want. Something that I like, my passion.

But that's not the problem.

This city is the place where my heart lies.

I grew up in several different places but I can reach that place within an hour with car, even though I rarely go there, but at least I know I can go there IF I want to. This is so much harder then I thought. I can't understand how come people not missing their hometown. I'm sorry if you think imma cry baby. I just want everyone to know that moving away isn't something that I really like.
I don't like changes. I like my room. I like it even if I don't have a doorknob or curtain. Even if wifi didn't reach my bed so I have to sit on the floor, and sometimes, when my sister suddenly want to check me out I got knocked up because I sit behind the door (which is miraculously the only place that have the strongest wifi signal in my room).
ANYWAY that's not the thing that I want to say. It's the people that I left here that makes this thousand times harder. I know I'm not the kind of person who like to text/call/chat my friends. I rarely goes to the assembly (assembly? hah! my strange vocabulary, mind you). I didn't go to their touring. I didn't regularly check out my friends' blog, I hate to sign in to facebook even though I know we have a message thread there. But believe me. I love them all. And leaving them is the biggest reason I always pretend to be busy when my mom ask me to do the packing.
This is not the kind of thing that I can do easily. I have this (some sort of) abandonment issue. Not talking about him leaving me. I don't care. (I lied again. So what? Problem?) Anyway. this is always happen. I don't know why, but I always feel left behind. Mostly cause I'm not permitted to go outside.
I have 5 bestfriend in JHS, two of them now live in Bandung, but they all meet each other far often then me getting to meet them. I sometimes go to Cibubur for days but I can't go to meet them because I have to stay in the house.
4 bestfriend in SHS, well, I'm not really having any problem with them (now) because our daily activity is mainly in Jakarta --except si boyot. I guess I'm missing her. That's the only problem. :< 
And I have friends (more like a family tho--) I always try to attend the events, but it's they always seem to think that that is never enough because maybe in 100 meeting I only attended like 20 times. I don't know how come they always come, but they always did, and that makes my effort seems little and unappreciated. BZZZTT. Sorry that's not the point, the point is.... I seems to spend to little time with them. And every time they brag about it I always felt left behind (even though it's mostly my fault 'cause I'm not good at asking permission or not rebellious enough to lie and force myself to come.)

So there you have me. I'm not good at making friends, and I have a couple of friends here that I'm not ready to leave because of that irrational abandonment issue that actually not really an abandonment problem. Oh God, I think too much that I lose my wit. HELP WHY AM I WRITING THIS?????

UTS~ A Sweet Rendezvous

"Syebelas January bertemu.. Menenjalani kisah kita ini.." -11 January versi gw buat UTS.. MUEHE! Ah, apakah banget mentang" abis karokean sama UTS jadi sok"an pake lagu segala pembukanya..

Hello, kawan blogger sekalian.. Hari ini 11 January (IYE APAAN SIH DARI TADI NGOMONG 11 JANUARY MULU SIH -___-) yeeh!! itu gara" gw seneng hari ini gw bisa jalan" sama kawan" smp.. udah lumayan lama ga ketemu maklum saja jadi kalo agak norak..

Yak, today karena bangun kesiangan, gw jadi bolos kuliah dan karena agak senggang jadi gw mau nebeng ke rumah bambang dulu.. abis mandi, gw pun langsung meluncur ke cibubur.. setelah merencanakan dengan licik gw akhirnya naik taksi dengan modal dikit (berharap bgt cibs ga macet biar hemat ongkos) namun apalah daya takdir berkata lain.. karena uangnya ga cukup sampe ke kotwis, gw berhenti ditengah jalan kucluk" naek ojek yang lebih affordable (DASAR GA MODAL!!) maap yah kurang bermodal begini.. ini dikarenakan nyokap baru ulang tahun dan gw pun lagi nabung dahsyat nian..

ENIWEY! akhirnya gw nyampe rumah bambang bau.. setelah itu gw pun masuk, tapi ngga diperbolehkan ke atas (bukan! bukan bertemu yang Maha Kuasa, maksudnya bertemu Yajo&Turli yang lagi dikamar atas) gw duga sih mereka lagi bungkus kado buat gw karena mereka emg belom ngasih kado (GEER BANGET COY) emg ternyata dipenghujung acara mereka ngasih kado sih.. nyehhehe..

singkatnya setelah selesai bungkus kado, gw berpelukan dengan mesra dengan Yajo-Turli, lalu pergi menjemput wawa dan akhirnya jalan ke Cibubur Junction.. berhubung udah jam 2an, dan belom makan dari bangun jadilah dengan brutal gw ngantri di hokben.. lalu kucluk"... si sapi yang ditunggu" akhirnya nongol dan ikutan makan..

wait, egik&didat duluan apa atya duluan ya yang dtg.. perasaan sih si homos dulu (egi&didat disingkat homos karena mereka jenisnya sama" lelaki bukan karena alasan lain) nah perasaan si homos ini dateng waktu UTS-atya lg ngantri, tapi entah hilang kemana dan baru dateng lagi setelah atya udah dateng.. yang mengherankan, setelah egik ngasih sumpit jumbo, homos pun hilang tanpa jejak.. haah intinya sih homos kayanya cuma mau ngasih sumpit raksasa aja.. lanjut~

makan.. lalu nunggu giliran karoke di temjon.. hectic banget situasinya.. gw separohan kartu ama bambang, tapinya gw maen time crisis 4 sama udin, jadi tiap kali gw koid, gw harus lari"an ke time crisis 3 yang notabene ujung pukul ujung sama tempat gw maen.. ENIWEY.. akhirnya waktu penantian pun usai.. kami karokean 3 jam.. 3 JAM SODARA SODARA.. suara gw abis (BOONG BANGET, NYAMPE RUMAH NYANYI LAGI, MANA SUARA PALES).. abis gitu sesi curhat sebentar, barulah kita pulang..

pas mau pulang gw dikasih oleh" dari Yajo, dan kado dari uts.. berikut ini adalah fotonya (termasuk sumpit jumbo dari egik)

Please ignore my face and RDK's book below the pillow.. untuk lebih jelasnya, berikut adalah foto barang" itu sendiri" :

sumpit jumbo dari egik

gw ngga tau kenapa, tapi ini manusia agak kedewa-dewaan.. ngga ada angin, ngga ada ujan, ngga minta, ngga maksa tiba" ngasih sumpit a.k.a stick drum.. yang lebih hebat lagi, masalahnya gw udh nyaris sebulan mau beli stick tapi ngga sempet" karena ga tau juga mau beli dimana.. makasih bang! anda meringankan beban saya! MUAHAHAHHA

Oleh" dari Yajo yang saya duga tempat sikat gigi..

Benda ini adalah oleh" dari Yajo.. sepanjang jalan dari cibubur-home gw belom buka.. pas udh nyampe baru gw buka.. pas gw buka reaksi pertama gw adalah "ieu téh 何 (nani)? tempat sikat gigikah?" makanya gw akhirnya memutuskan untuk menaruh sikat gigi disitu..

Bantal asoy kado dari UTS

awalnya, melihat dari diameter dan tinggi kertas kado gw kira ini semacam boneka gede gimanaaa gitu.. namun setelah disentuh, ko ngga kaya boneka.. setelah dibuka, kenyataannya memang bukan boneka, melainkan bantal gede yang asoy.. jadi kado ini bener" unpredictable banget.. give a prokprok to UTS.. yeaaahh!! oiya, karena ga tega ditaro dibawah, jadi bakal gw jadiin bantal di kamar..

Makasih banyak kepada orang" yang telah membuat saya senang hari ini.. Especially UTS..  makasih juga buat mas" satpam LW yang mau nganterin gw kedepan.. tadinya mau ngasih duit tapi keburu kabur sih! (CERITA DIBALIK SATPAM LW INI BENER" HAHAHA BANGET DEH.. MALU"IN AJA)

Hmm.. nampaknya sekian post hari ini..
I <3 UTS so much! Thanks for this amusing amusing daayyyy!!! :*

"Yeah, no.. I'm good"

beberapa bulan belakangan ini gw ngerasa down mulu.. rasanya ada beban berat dipunggung yang harus dipikul sendiri.. bukannya sok" jagoan neon tuh gw nanggung sendiri.. tapi sangking konyol dan bodohnya itu loh, gw sampe kadang malu sendiri.. -____- kalo saat ini belom ada yang tau sih, mungkin beberapa bulan lagi.. atau bahkan beberapa hari lagi.. I don't know.. tapi gw bener" hopeless banget soal ini..

yang lucu.. karena ngga bisa cerita ke siapa", kebetulan lagi ngga ada diary, dan lebih sialnya lagi tumblr gw isinya cuma khusus yang asik" aja, gw jadi ngga bisa nummahin perasaan gw dengan sepenuhnya.. dan sebagai gantinya, gw mengalihkan perhatian gw ke hal" yang ngga penting.. such as film, atau artis" almost twice my age itu.. *sigh* cape juga dibilang 'gila'.. ini ke 2 kalinya gw dibilang gila.. pertama, waktu gw yaaah itulah.. dan sekarang ini..

hampir tiap malem gw tidur jam 2.. jam 3.. atau malah ga tidur sama sekali.. berkutat didepan laptop, nonton lah, ngenet lah.. gw menenggelamkan diri gw dalam kesibukan yang ngga penting yang nguras tenaga.. gw bikin diri gw addict sama laptop biar gw bisa lupa situasi aneh yang gw hadepin ini.. I'm too perfectionist and too detail.. masalah yang biasa aja dibuat jadi rumit karena pengen jawaban sempurna dan mendetail.. semua harus sama kaya yang gw mau, kalo engga, gw bakalan super maksa buat terus ngulang sampai sempurna..  akibatnya semua jadi lebih rumit, lama" jadi bosen dan akhirnya nyerah.. lagi" satu masalah ditimbun..


menyedihkan, gw memutuskan untuk buta dengan situasi orang lain yang kurang beruntung dan terus memandang ke atas karena gw pengen situasi gw perfect.. kadang leher gw sampe pegel maksain liat ke atas.. berharap ada yang kasian sama gw dan ngejulurin tangan buat narik gw ke atas.. bahkan gw kasihan sama diri gw sendiri.. tapi bukannya mau nolong, gw pasti bakal nendang diri gw sendiri sampe jatoh.. begitu pula pastinya dengan pikiran orang lain terhadap gw.. hmm.. I'm very pessimist for an optimist person..

Well, because everything seems weird and spinning in my head right now, I think I'll go to sleep this instance,, bye~

UTS~ A Bond Between 6 (or 8?) Random Person

Omg, I made this blog nearly 3 years ago but I never post anything. But thanks to rara, not only made me write a post, but also about UTS. well done ra..

Ehm.. Ehm.. seperti yajo, karena gw ngga bisa langsung komen di postan wawa, gw bakal bales disini.. dan berhubung ini first post, gw mau bikin yang panjang.. so maap kalo panjang dan membosankan.. kalo ngga tertarik dengan prolog gw, silakan scroll sampe ke 3 paragraf akhir karena rangkumannya ada disitu..
silakan menikmati postan pertama gw....... :

pertama" gw pengen berterima kasih sama rara, karena dia, gw mendadak kangen tsubasa dan kmrn bernostalgila dengannya..
kedua, gw pengen menggeplak rara atas blognya yang bukannya bikin gw terharu malah bikin tangan gw gatel.. mengutip kata si  "am I cool enough to hang out with you guys?" sungguhkah itu yang ada diotakmu ra? how dare you! setelah jelas" gw nyatakan perasaan suka gw sama lo sejak kelas satu.. (waitt.. berasa lesbi gw.. -__-) anyway gw inget banget kejadian itu di gedung umar, lt 1, fh cibubur.. gw jelas" bilang gw pengen banget temenan sama lo karena lo keren, lo artistic, dan lo sungguh keren dimata gw.. (I said that twice cause I MEAN IT)

men, tau ga sih, sejak tanggal 25 Juli 2005 gw udah punya perasaan kalo kita bakal jadi temen deket.. pertama kali gw minta separo bolanya yajo karena gw ngga bawa helm dari bola.. pertama kalinya err.. yajo sama rara menunjukkan kecintaannya pada anime dilapangan bertanah itu, dan pertama kalinya gw liat si kurus naiia nimbrung bareng gw mengenai topik anime itu.. gw yakin kita pasti bisa jadi temen deket.. entah gw yang kebanyakan nonton film/baca komik/novel persahabatan atau emg lagi sakau, tapi gw yakin hal" itu adalah pertanda.. #eyaakkk

awalnya gw kira insting gw salah, karena entah kenapa yang deket sama gw cuma yajo doang.. rara dan naiia waktu itu malah terkesan bengis sama gw.. tapi gw malah makin yakin kalo sbnrnya hal ini cuma rintangan dalam proses bonding jadi sahabat.. gw malah makin negebet pengen ngedeketin lo berdua.. sampe puncaknya adalah surat sakti mantra guna itu muncul di keranjang di locker gw.. (damn! suratnya ada di bu emi [bersama surat cinta (?) pertama gw]! pdhl kalo jadi kenang"an lucu juga kali ya?)

gw lupa kapan gw ngusulin bikin komik gabungan, tapi yang jelas berkat itu gw jadi tau timeline kapan perseteruan memanas dan akhirnya gw nyerah nyoba temenan dan ingin mengundurkan diri .. kmrn gw baru inget karena baca.. setelah acara surat"an itu, gw sempet mau ngilang dari tsubasa karena ngerasa minder sama wawa&naiia.. yajo pun waktu itu orang yang mandiri, dia bisa temenan sama siapa aja.. waktu itu gw bener" kesepian banget kalo yajo mendadak lagi ngga mood maen sama gw, karena disaat yang sama kebetulan gw sepertinya jadi musuh seluruh manusia aswan (entah kenapa tiba" gw ngebayangin gw jadi kaya tante" kesepian -___-)

tapi toh waktu sendirian itu bikin gw sadar kalo sendirian itu ngga menyenangkan walaupun sbnrnya gw bisa juga sendirian.. dan gw juga ngga mau mengulangi kesalahan gw waktu sd karena nyerah temenan sehingga jadi ansos sendirian, maka akhirnya gw pelan" mundur sambil ngeliat salah apa gw sampe dimusuhin gitu.. jawabannya sampe sekarang masih belom ketemu, karena gw emg bebal.. tapi akhirnya gw berusaha mendekati naiia dengan lebih keras.. akhir kelas 1, di villa (yang horor karena lemarinya diselot samaa tasbih) berkat sedikit curhat, akhirnya naiia jadi bisa berhubungan baik sama gw.. :3

setelah itu keadaan jadi lebih baik buat gw.. buat gw tahun itu indah banget.. Yajo lebih sering maen sama gw, naiia juga gitu.. gw ngga sendirian lagi.. gw punya temen! tapi menurut gw yang paling indah itu malah tahun berikutnya.. karena waktu itu akhirnya UTS komplit.. UTS terbentuk dengan indahnya.. walau kayaya sebelum jadi deket ber 6 itu ada peristiwa berdarah dulu..

waktu itu atya sama trudy dateng.. agak ngeblur sih ingetan gw.. hari pertama gw inget atya dan tudi yang heboh nian tapi supel.. menyemarakkan kondisi kelas yang menurut gw waktu itu berkelompok.. tapi perasaan gw sih waktu pertama pindah mereka berdua itu deketnya sama wawa-bembi.. yang gw inget tiba" ada perkumpulan di lebanon menyangkut wawa-bembi yang diprakarsai oleh atyung.. gw ngga yakin yajo-naiia tau/ngga masalahnya, tapi waktu itu gw bner" clueless.. perasaan mulai dari situlah akhirnya kita mulai deket berenam..

UTS pun komplit.. mungkin ini emg narsis, gw selalu cerita ke keluarga gw dengan bangga bahwa temen" smp gw adalah orang-orang pinter&kreatif yang sekaligus paling idiot sedunia.. pinter secara akademik tapi idiot bareng"dalam hal"lainnya.. (well, ga idiot beneran sih, maksudnya bloon unik deh..) ya, kita unik.. entah dari sifat maupun dari badan.. (contoh perbedaan ukuran badan : dari XS-XL).. makanya kita itu saling melengkapi, dan menurut gw kita ini adalah komposisi paling top sedunia.. waktu" gila"an bareng, waktu" ngerebel (?), waktu konyol, waktu becanda, I treasure it all.. because like what I always say over and over again. UTS is a place where I.. gw berterima kasih banget sama fh, kalo bukan keadaan sekolahnya yang agak seperti living hell, ga akan kaya gini ceritanya.. sayang banget waktu aktivitas produktif UTS cuma 1 tahun.. tapi gw sangat menikmati kehadiran masing" dari kalian.. jadi omongan wawa tentang ngintil itu adalah sampah tingkat tinggi.. dan gw merasa terhina karena bisa"nya wawa ngepost kaya gitu berarti dia ngga merasakan cintaku kepada UTS.. jadi tanggal 12 nanti siap" aja kena jitak gw ya, ra.. and remember, UTS is not UTS without the presence of one of us.

mengutip tulisan di kado sweet 17th gw : "In this world full of stupidity and craziness... a wonderful bond exist. This bond glued so damn sticky that no one can ever break it at all. Beyond your vision until the end of time, this bond is us, UTS. We share, we listen, we understand each other."

love you always girls <3
hugs & kisses